Today was quiet again; nothing substantial or exciting happened to me. I guess my life just isn’t that interesting. I wonder sometimes what life would be like if I wasn’t around. Would everything be the same besides for a few slight differences or would everyone’s lives change dramatically? I also wonder if people would miss me if I died, I don’t just mean my family but my friends. Would my friends miss me or would they just forget about me and move on with there lives? Just thinking about things like that depresses me.

Though I don’t know everything, I probably wouldn’t say anything even if I did. All I ever do is ask myself why I continue with this emotionally abusive relationship with myself. I’m not deep or profound, though I wish I was. I wish I had something to hold onto to keep myself going. I’m just sitting at school right now wallowing in self-pity, there are better things I could be doing right now.

What am I to do? I’ve given it all I could, I’ve given my everything. I’ll never find anyone that will care about me. I need to do something important with my fucking life. I need to get out of here and start over. I just want to walk away from all my problems: my problems at home, at school and my problems with life. I’ll just go away and you all could just forget about me and what I meant to you, if I meant anything at all to you. So if you want me to leave, tell me.sdfsd

I've been having trouble coping with my depression and it's really getting to me. My girlfriend dumped me and it really hurt, even though I already have a new one I still think about her sometimes. I think I still love her but I'm not sure. Being a teenager is not fun at all, sometime's I wish I could just skip adolescents and be an adult already.

Yesterday I just stayed home and watched horror movies. I've always hated horror movies though; one of the reasons being is that they always make me depressed when I watch them. There’s always so much pain and suffering in those kinds of movies that it can be kind of overbearing at times. Yet I still watch them for some reason.